Okay, today has been an emotional day. I was on a 3 hour conference call today with USCIS and the Department of State.
When we started this adoption journey, I never in a million years would've dreamed this journey would include a conference call with government officials and asking people to sign a petition to the prime minister of Ethiopia!
But God knew. And once again, He is asking us to put all our FAITH and HOPE in Him. I am going to be real honest here...sometimes it's hard. Right now, it's hard.
Basically, it all comes down to the fact that we could, once again, be facing significant delays in bringing Caroline Faith home. We really have no idea of a timeline right now.
But God knows. And we are trusting that this delay is all part of His divine plan to bring us to our daughter. His plan is so much greater...it's much bigger than we could ever imagine.
Once again, I am at a place where I have to let go of "MY" timeline, and surrender to God's timeline. You would think I would've learned this lesson, as I have had to do this so many times over the course of this journey. I give it all to God, but then I start trying to "take it back" a little bit and control it myself.
And then God puts us right back into a place of TOTAL and COMPLETE dependence on Him alone...which is exactly where we are supposed to always be. This adoption journey is all about HIM...His calling, His faithfulness, His child. Yes, Caroline Faith is His child. He created her. He's knows what's best for us and for her.
And we trust Him completely. I am not putting my hope in our adoption agency, our government, a petition, or anything else. I am choosing to put ALL of my HOPE in God alone. He has a plan for bringing Caroline Faith home, and I will rest in His plan...even when it's hard.
We are praying fervently. Please pray for us! We need your prayers and encouragement right now. Our 7 year old daughter prayed the sweetest prayer tonight for her baby sister to come home soon. It left me in tears.
There are A LOT of "unknowns" for us right now on this journey. But these things I KNOW...God hears our prayers. He sees our tears. He is in control. He is FAITHFUL. And He has a good plan for us and for our daughter.
"Meanwhile, the moment we get tired in the waiting, God's Spirit is right alongside helping us along. If we don't know how or what to pray, it doesn't matter. He does our praying in and for us, making prayer out of our wordless sighs, our aching groans. He knows us far better than we know ourselves, knows our pregnant condition, and keeps us present before God. That's why we can be so sure that every detail in our lives of love for God is worked into something good."