It's the very end of the month of June. And with the end of this month, I have been processing many different thoughts and emotions.
Back in April, I started praying very boldly for something specific regarding our adoption process. I was asking God that we would see Caroline Faith's face sometime in the month of June. The month of June was just heavy on my heart, and I started praying hard and asking God for a "June miracle"...a referral call for our precious daughter.
Even as time went on, and we did not see many referrals going out, I was still praying and holding out hope. I was praying for a miracle. I knew that nothing was impossible for Him. But I also knew that He would answer my prayer according to His good and perfect will.
Was the Lord's will for us to see our daughter's face in June? I wasn't sure, but I sure hoped so. And I just kept praying and asking Him for our "June miracle".
Well, at the end of yesterday, I realized that God's plan was not for us to get a referral in June. He had answered my prayer, but not with a "Yes". He had answered my prayer with a "Wait."
I have to be honest that my heart was sad. A little sad, but not hopeless. You see, this past Thursday, God gave me this verse to cling to...
I think I knew then that He was preparing me for what His answer would be. His ways are not my ways...they are higher! His thoughts are not my thoughts...they are better! His plans are not my plans...they are PERFECT!
So, today I am choosing to rest in His word. I am choosing to trust His plan. I am choosing to wait on Him. I am choosing JOY. And I will be honest with ya'll, after being on this journey for over 2 years, I have to make these choices daily.
The Lord never promised us this adoption journey to our daughter in Ethiopia would be quick, easy and painless. But He did promise to be with us every step of the way...and He has been.
And we are still savoring the JOY of the June miracle that the Lord did give us...the salvation of our son! Thank you for sharing in our joy! We have been praying for all of our children's salvation since before they were even born.
I realized that even though God's plan was not for us to get our referral call in June, He did answer our prayer. When Carson prayed to accept Christ, God answered our prayer that we have prayed for over 7 years!!! Yes, I know we did indeed get our "June miracle"! It was not in the way we thought, but it was a beautiful part of God's perfect plan for our family!
So thankful to serve a God whose ways are HIGHER!!!
God is good, all the time. All the time, God is good!